I want to say that I don't recognize the religion that I was raised on. I want to say that this fanatical nationalism, this disregard for the fruit a person bears, this victim complex whenever Christianity isn't supreme... that it is something I never saw coming. But the reality is that I just clung to few folks devoted radically to love and ignored all of the rest. However, the more people you meet and the more people you love, the harder it gets to ignore things that are happening to someone else. Yes, you could walk by, but that's your friend lying facedown in the ditch and you love your friend. And no matter how many times a Christian Nationalist invites you to define love as holding people accountable to your understanding of morality, that isn't it. And it's not even what was modeled in the Bible. Jesus was hard on folks who were traditionally successful and viewed as worthy. But he was unnecessarily kind to the people on the margin who could do nothing for him. I say that to contrast with the people who claim his name the loudest now. 

I think often of the Good Samaritan. I think more about the Good Samaritan now than I ever did when I went to church regularly. I think about how Jesus is surrounded by people and a rich young man comes and asks him how to get into the kingdom of heaven. And he tells him in front of everyone to sell all of his things and give them to the poor. And I think about Jesus eating with tax collectors. And talking with divorcees and prostitutes. And I think about how politics is really just how we organize people, organize society. I think about how political every single one of the stories of Jesus is. And I think about how gutted those stories often are in their re-telling. How many times did Jesus say the first will be last and the last will be first, and how many times does the New Testament says that God does not show favoritism? And how should those things inform how we organize people, how we politic? I think about James telling us that pure religion is looking after the foreigner, orphan, and widow and how those were all of the most vulnerable people in that time and place. 

I think about how the trans people that I have known in real life have gone out of their way to be kind because they know just how hard life can be. And I think about the immigrants in my life, especially the brown ones, have given me so much more than they have ever taken, especially in hospitality. And I think about what happens when you believe the stories people pass around instead of your own lived experience, but that you still have to be aware of what a drop in the bucket your lived experience is. And I think about the Good Samaritan who is the hero of the story. And I think about Jesus telling a gathering of Jewish people at odds with their Samaritan neighbors that they should be like the Samaritan in the story if they want to follow the greatest commandment. And how Jesus asks the crowd if the priest, Levite or Samaritan was the good neighbor and the expert in the law did not say "the Samaritan" but said "the one who had mercy" as though "Samaritan" was a loaded word.

And I wonder if the American Church will ever be associated with mercy. 

Especially now that there are phrases like "toxic compassion" coming out of the mouths of preachers. And how the best that any of the church folks I grew up with can do, is distance themselves from politics and strive to be "a political". But Jesus didn't shrink from politics. He turned down the offer of political leadership and power, but he outlined in every story how we care for our neighbors, our enemies, and our oppressors. There actually isn't anyone anywhere that Jesus said it was ok to leave them in the ditch. And I know everyone is stuck in fight, flight, freeze, and fawn. But I keep wondering if the reason Jesus had to use a Samaritan as his example of following the two greatest commandments is the same reason I had to leave the church to find people who cared about the same things I cared about.