Some Things I Learned In 2018

• You can lose a good friend without knowing the how or the why.
• When you lose a good friend, it will remind you of all of the other people that you have lost. And you will grieve all over again for people you haven't been close to in a decade.
• Trauma is subjective. But it finds all of us.
• Growing where you are planted is hard even after you stop comparing your plot to everyone else's.
• I have a bad habit of defining how I am by the struggle I am facing. Do I even exist if life gets easy?
• I am trying to begin to define life by my questions and curiosities of which there are many. But I still don't know how to communicate any of that when someone asks "how are you?" because I don't expect them to care or understand especially when my curiosity has led me to do something like reading a couple dozen gardening books in rapid succession.
• I don't need to justify my curiosity, I need to follow it.