Persist

I read about the Persistent Widow in the Bible and all I can think about is how I never want to be like her. To need justice from an unjust judge. To know that they have no interest in justice. To have no other recourse but to ask the judge again and again. It’s a story of persistence, yes, but also of powerlessness. Of water wearing down a stone. Of patience born not so much out of spirituality but out of necessity.

In the end the judge says to himself, “Even though I don’t fear God or care what people think, yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won’t eventually come and attack me!” I see the promise here even though I don’t want it. She didn’t win by having the best moral argument or by having popular opinion on her side. Neither strength nor intelligence gave her power. She won because the judge was afraid he would never be rid of her and that she would eventually attack him. There are so many reasons why I feel dis-ease when I read this. First and foremost is the fact that I want to win the judge over with my words, my rightness, my cleverness. But I cannot argue him into fearing God and doing what is right. Such is the world. So many times I have asked for justice and what I wanted was the power to explain and defend myself. But that isn’t the promise. The promise is that if you show up with persistence, the unjust will relent. Not “they will know better” and not that they will be any less corrupt.

And I wonder how I'm supposed to apply that now, today. If you’re outside of Portland (and the other cities protesting vigorously), you might not know how active many churches have been in these protests. If you go to an all white church, you might be surprised that other churches view this fight as their own. If you are able to look at this issue from far away, you might not see that some churches seem to unanimously support BLM and others see it as a source of division while still others unanimously condemn the movement. When it’s your family, coworkers, pastor, or friends who might not come home after a traffic ticket, this fight feels different. It's not just the names of the dead that you want to remember and give justice to. It's also about the names of the living that you want to protect.

I know these issues are big and complicated and messy. You can get lost for days asking "how much violence is too much violence?", "would anyone listen and seek change if protesters asked in a nicer way?", and "what do people really expect to accomplish?" and so many more questions. But when I pray for my city, I ask that we be like the persistent widow who kept asking even though the judge was known to be corrupt and did not care what God or man thought of him. I ask that we show up for justice regularly in big ways and small ways. And I ask that no one has to attack the judge before he relents. I ask that part of the promise be that he will relent before violence is "necessary", but I also admit that I don't know how this is "supposed to go". What I do know is that the protests have been largely peaceful so far, but they don't have to stay that way.

I didn't expect to find that line in the Bible when this story started tickling my brain. I wanted the story to end with the judge understanding the value of justice but it ends with the judge just trying to save themselves from the threat of the persistent widow. None of the moralizing that I expected to find exists here. No extolling a good patient wait or extorting the virtues of gentleness, only a widow committed to her own need for justice and a judge who is moved by self-preservation. May it also be so here in my city with the judges, the legislators, the government officials, and the police. There certainly are enough widows in the streets these days. And may God grant peace in my heart as I continue to wrestle with this passage.