God provides things you don't think you need sometimes.

He gave me free muffin tins, old bananas, and a sunny Saturday morning. I've been in culture shock for two weeks and sick for the week after that. Today, though, today, I feel that he has not left me alone to figure out the rest of my life.

I do not know why I know it so strongly now. Only that I made banana bread muffins with what he gave me. Muffins are different than my usual banana bread because they are what my mom always made. The mornings I woke to banana bread muffins were always special.

Somehow, that makes this morning special. Somehow, it invites parts of me that have long been standing vigil to sit down and rest. Somehow, today is the day that the wind comes and hits my sails at just the right angle to reassure me that I am not stuck here. I am indeed moving in a direction and that is enough today. Last weekend a good friend took the time to remind me of exactly where I want to be and why I am doing what I am doing. I went flying. There is not anything I love more than flying. But I needed this week to challenge the rest of me.

Most of all, I needed this morning to tell me that I am full sail ahead for something. Something involving flying. And that is enough today. Hopefully that will be enough for quite awhile.