good boy...stay, stay

Today is bigger than me ...and it has teeth.

Actually, I have encountered a good many toothed days of larger stature than myself. I am not sure what to do with them. I have been told all of the true-but-not-perfectly-helpful-things. I am fully convince that God is bigger and stronger than today or tomorrow or any amount of my life. But that does not change very much. Today is still giant and fanged...and here.

I am waiting for something to give. I am waiting for God to act, today to leave, or to be strong myself. I am feeling the fragility of weakness in real time. And that is ok. It is scary and humbling and just a little bit painful but it is honest and true too. Today is bigger than me and it has teeth.

I do not have such large teeth. I am not afforded such shining defenses. I am not really safe. I am definitely not comfortable. But I am here and here is where I am supposed to be. There is purpose in this and I am waiting to see it.