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I find in myself the shards of other people who have long since left. To my friend Rachel belongs Psalm 1. Hilary has left many shards, but today it is "wade in the water" that I am aware of. Nicole somehow has The Shining, though I have never seen the whole movie. To many other friends books and music and ideas belong. It is funny how these pieces remain long after the people have left, changed, and indeed become different people. It is both happy and sad. And I think it is ok for it to be both of those things. I am not afraid of sad things anymore.

I used to think that sadness was a thing that, if paid attention and fed too often, would grow and consume me. There are days where I still think that may be true, but I am not afraid today. I think it's because of the sunshine today. Sunshine makes me a better person. Seriously. It also helps that I made it through a crazy week. These days I feel a little like a bobber on a fishing line. Under water for the beginning of the week, above water by Friday. Today is a sunny Friday. That is now the definition of rest. It gives good perspective.